Friday, December 09, 2005

First Last Now

~ taken from BGB ~

fIRST
First job: admin asst w a Japanese mfg co at age 16.
First screen name: Nal (short for nalene, my creation n didn’t see anyone using e same name as yet. my diary was named after it).
First funeral: my beloved grandma
First pet: none. love to see adorable ones like hamsters n dogs but they’ll suffer w me.
First piercing: on my ears, it hurt a tad.
First tattoo: none, not necessary.
First credit card: I don’t like it. I’ve a debit instead.
First kiss: my mom, no idea where she kissed when I’m born. somewhere on my face I suppose.
First enemy: myself, when I did badly w e exams which I’d high expectations on.

lAST
Last car ride: a fren’s - nov 26th; a cab - e one I took to e interview at the Sweden MNC.
Last kiss: my sis
Last movie watched: in oct.. The Myths, Jackie Chan’s film.
Last beverage drank: avocado juice, loving it.
Last phone call: To: From: Carine, my job agent. I’ve landed w a temp job fm her just.
Last time showered: last night
Last CD played: piano ballads
Last website visited: shinticre.blogspot.com
Last Book Read: on-going still – Living History, Hillary Clinton

nOW
Single or taken: single
Gender: a lady
Birthday: aug
Sign: leo
Siblings: younger sis, margaret
Hair color: originally is black, was dyed w light reddish copper. hum.. my hair’s too black n e color Is visible only under light.
Eye color: dark brown to black
Wearing: t-shirt n shorts
Drinking: h2o
Thinking about: a meeting w my galfren this evening n my new temp job startg next tues!
Listening to: The Best of Nicholas Gunn (new age)
Looking at: news articles

Thursday, December 08, 2005

It's broken

Yeah.. the promise, as declared in my previous post, is not kept. I initiated e conversation. I worried I'll lose a friend. And ya.. I'm not a confident person; inferior at times... so....

Pride cost nothing. In life, a worthy friend is something.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Death Penalty - is it unnecessary...unwelcomed

It is known internationally that there is death penalty in Singapore for drug trafficking, at least for now, if not previously. And there has been a debate everywhere. Inevitably, some Australians will start boycotting Singapore, be it our goods & services, our people, etc. Already, I've seen some bloggers swearing at Singapore. And reports saying drug-traffickers should avoid Asian countries as they'll have to face serious consequences if caught. Does that indicate it is not a serious offence to smuggle drugs around the world? They are forgivable for an act which they literally know it meant to harm people? Perhaps they did it out of their folly moment & we should pardon them, at least for once. It might be so for individuals. But as a nation, it's govern by laws. Anyone who breaks the law has to accept the punishment, including citizens of the nation itself. Had the punishment been lightened, who will abide the law in future; & where is the equality for those been executed?
I'd like to hear your say on this. It's okay for any awful ones.

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Drug gamble ends with 6am hanging
3 December 2005, The Straits Times English(c) 2005 Singapore Press Holdings Limited

Australian Nguyen Tuong Van's body will be flown home to Melbourne this evening
NGUYEN Tuong Van first made it into the news on Dec 16, 2002.
A four-paragraph item in The Straits Times headlined 'Aussie caught with drugs', reported that the Australian national had been charged with drug trafficking after being caught four days earlier while in transit at Changi Airport.
That was the obscure start to this story. Three years on, the ending was anything but.
In the pre-dawn dark yesterday, some 50 newshounds from 35 TV channels and newspapers worldwide milled around outside Changi Prison, ready to report Nguyen's death to the world.
At 6am, there was a sudden stillness in the air. That was the hour when the 25-year-old was hanged.
His crime: trafficking in 396.2g of pure heroin - enough for 26,000 doses.
His twin brother, Khoa Dang, showed up outside the prison 45 minutes earlier, with lawyer Julian McMahon and eight friends in four taxis. After the media mobbed him, the entourage was let inside to wait in a room.
His mother, Madam Nguyen Kim, spent the morning at a chapel. Mother and son bade their final farewell the day before, when rules were relaxed, allowing her to hold his hands through a grille. She also touched his face and hair, according to Mr McMahon.
Such was the controversy over the case that the question of whether they could touch each other became a matter of national attention, meriting the intervention of the Australian and Singapore leaders.
Singapore - which, like other countries with capital punishment, does not allow such contact due to the trauma it could induce - made a concession for holding hands. It did so after taking into account a personal appeal by Australian PM John Howard to PM Lee Hsien Loong.
It seems it was not good enough. Mr Howard yesterday described the decision to allow just hand-holding as 'clinical'.
In Canberra, church bells tolled at 9am. Politicians and supporters of the hanged man lit candles and placed flowers outside the Singapore High Commission. One banner read: 'Oh Singapore, how could you?'
In Melbourne, Nguyen's hometown, there was a vigil at St Ignatius Church.
Back in Singapore, just after 10am, a hearse left the prison gates with Nguyen's body. Covered in a white shroud with a picture of the Virgin Mary on it, the body was later placed in a coffin for a service at the Good Shepherd Convent's Marymount Chapel.
His body will be flown home this evening.
That will likely bring an end to the frenzy of the last few days, as the Australian media camped here reported back to a home audience which was divided between those who supported the death penalty and those who did not.
But it was not just the media's show. The past few weeks melded into a supercharged drama of emotion, ethics and politics - of one country's decision to punish an offender for a crime committed on its sovereign soil, and another's desire to protect its citizen from what it deems as vengeful laws.
Mr Howard made five personal appeals to Mr Lee for clemency. Singapore stood its ground, defending its laws, which impose a mandatory death penalty on drug traffickers, be they Singaporeans or foreigners.
Some say the tenor of bilateral ties has been altered.
University of Western Australia academic Kenneth Morgan expects 'collateral damage'. He fears there will be Australians who will choose Qantas over Singapore Airlines, and those who will cut their Optus phone lines.
But official ties are likely to be sturdier, said observers.
'Singapore and Australia need each other,' said Prof Morgan. The two countries enjoy strong economic, military and security ties.
While Mr Howard said yesterday he would not encourage boycotts, he did not rule out the Nguyen case having an effect on people-to-people relations.
Hours before the hanging, a small group of activists lit candles near the prison.
Mr Jacob George, of the Singapore Anti-Death Penalty Committee, said that while 'most Singaporeans want the death penalty', a 'small minority is starting to speak out'.
But some, like marketing executive Lee Su Wei, 26, believe capital punishment is the key reason Singapore is relatively drug-free: 'This is the maximum sentence. It's the highest deterence you can mete out.'
Mr Howard hopes it will have that effect. As he told the media, the hanging was a 'message to the young of Australia' about the danger of peddling drugs.
Nguyen paid the price - with his life.

A WAKE-UP CALL TO THE YOUNG
'I hope the strongest message that comes out of this is a message to the young of Australia - don't have anything to do with drugs, don't use them, don't touch them, don't carry them, don't traffick in them. Don't imagine for a moment that you can risk carrying drugs anywhere in Asia without suffering the most severe consequences.'

-- AUSTRALIAN PRIME MINISTER JOHN HOWARD, on the execution of Nguyen Tuong Van.

DEATH PENALTY IS A COUNTRY'S RIGHT
'Both our countries have got the death penalty, Other countries may not consider it appropriate but these are laws within our own countries. Everyone is entitled to his own opinion but this is the right of every individual country. If anyone breaks the law, they will have to face the consequences.'

-- MALAYSIAN FOREIGN MINISTER SYED HAMID ALBAR, rejecting complaints that Singapore's execution of Nguyen was barbaric.


A THIRD-WORLD ACT WHICH HURTS US ALL
'For a first-world country to be imposing a third-world penalty by executing this young man, it diminishes the lives of all of us. The Singapore Government must understand that killing this young Australian will not kill the fight against the mandatory death penalty.'
-- MR ROB HULLS, Attorney-General of Australia's Victoria State where the Nguyens live.

Friday, December 02, 2005

Dramatic lessons in just a day

Worst Case
And it was this one that knocked me out hard, the whole day of yestd till now! N it’s going on n on.. (^n^) I’ve decided to ignore him for a month! Arrrghhh...stupidity, here I am.
I’ve actu sent him some souvenirs months back in Aug. Knowing westerner seldom has e opportunity to drink Chinese tea, I couriered 3 types of tea leaves, together with some other stuffs. Only recently I’ve remembered to get feedback fm him.

“Not yet but I’ll try it soon.” This was e first I’ve got in Oct.
“Hum.., I’m shifting back to my home so once settled, I’ll give it a shot. Or else u’ll get mad =P” This was heard in Nov.
And the final one, yestd, “Honestly, I don’t like tea.”

Doink..crashed!! For a long anticipation, hoping he’ll hv some liking for Chinese tea, even a tad would be nice, he said he doesn’t like it, at all! Not even bother to try either. I would appreciate if he’d tell me straight when I first asked that, I wouldn’t feel as bad as how I’m experiencing now. It’s so dumb n embarrassing to keep asking someone who isn’t keen on something for 3 months. It’s like he’s implying, ‘Hey, I’m don’t really give a damn care on those stuffs. So could u pls stop bothering me with that, anymore?’

I felt awful, disappointed and..perplexed....damn it! Albeit he’d thanked me for e effort n said will be keeping as friendship memento, I really hope my friends would like the gifts I sent them. Is not for the efforts I put in, but the thoughts I meant to make them happy with. Wouldn’t u feel satisfied seeing ur friends exult with gifts they received from you? Contrary, I’m not saying I insist them to like it. I’ll be despondent, nonetheless I’ll do a better job next time. The point here is he should have told me in the beginning, don’t let me carry such great hope with each given excuse.

But why am I so mad at him...have I overreacted? Frankly, I think I did, after blogging now. Anyway, I’m gonna hack the heaven care of him..for a month, I declared. And I’ve flared up a tad at him, telling I’m more stubborn than him. Unless he wanna start conversation with me, I can’t be discourteous to stay quiet right? Hem, that’s it. Promised.

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Worse Case
I was going for an interview for a temporary post at a Sweden MNC. I’ve no formal footwear so I wore my mom’s. It’s slightly larger n I thgt I could ‘hand-le’, erm...‘foot-le’.

At e lobby of a bldg, I registered myself with e security. He caught my attention; thou he passed my IC back with the right, his left hand was tapped on his right elbow. That’s what I called good manner, very well indeed, for a security. I then went to press e lift button to go up to e agency, which recommended me e job. At this moment, an unexpectedly conversation started.

Security boy: Did you fell?
Me, smiling ineptly: Erm.. blisters..
Security boy: U need a plaster?
Me, smiling delightfully: Do u hv one??
Security boy: Oh yes!
Me, so so glad: Uhh..thanks!
(I limped my way to him while he got a plaster for me out of his first-aid kit.)
Security boy: Do u need a chair?
Me, grinning cheek-to-cheek: Not necessary, thanks.

With a last gratitude to him, I went up to the agency.
Yup, I couldn’t foot-le with that larger than life shoes.. *sob..sob...* I regretted not choosing e informal decision, my heeled flip-flops. Hummm... =( I continued to limp to e MNC by hopping into a cab. I’ll be late, to limp there.

Here, I reflected some things. Had I not met a nice security boy, I wouldn’t realize human resource (HR) personnel are inhumane. They are only concern with closing their cases for companies asap. Seeing me limping the way, Stephanie, my agent, didn’t even bother to offer plaster or empathy with my poor feet. What do they learn in HR, I wonder? Be cold, callous n insensitive and present an intellectually acceptable candidate to a position that needed that intellectual? Did they scrutinize closely if that is what e candidate is looking on or e co is seeking for? Nah, I don’t feel that way.

The jobscope as their accounts executive was far too much for me, esp when I’m back to school in Jan n be drowned w projects. Likewise, e MNC needed someone who could really focus well n fully for e 6-months contract. It’s an MNC my dear.

IR - Inhuman Resource Agency.

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Case Study
I had a chat w e blur-looking 60-odd yrs cabby on my way. I actu started off a little n he carried on enthusiastically, describing his life, his family, their endeavor when needed to send his son to Aust for a 5-year architecture education. “Mm..ok..correct..ya..indeed..hum..agreed..yeah..huh..is it..ohh..” nodding my head all e way for half an hour. I did listen okay, except 1 or 2 parts. Uh!.. And this i said, “Be careful..” I’m e front passenger u see... oso, he was so engrossed w his living history..fyi.

When reaching, I told him I saw unit nos. 12,.16,..20 factories passed us on the left. (Bldgs at e right are all single digit units.) Mine’s at unit no. 19. I presumed we’ve missed it as I seemed to skip some bldgs while watching out for e units. I requested him to reverse. He finally understood what I meant for reversing back after repeating e fourth time. Taken aback slightly, he replied me, “Oh no, is not there. E bldgs there are all in even sequence. The odds should be at e other lane.” Contemplated a moment, hey.. he was correct!
In e end, he wanna charged me less than what was metered, I rejected, asking him to charge accordingly. After all, he saved me trouble to limp for another 15 mins to my destination, had I been more stubborn w what I believed.

Never belittled uncles with vague expression.

I became a momma's laughing stock after listening to my dreadful experience. sist too. hmmm...

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Might be due to that...

When we do some impractical stuff for him, it might be due that.
When he rebukes us for being unreasonable, it might be due to that.
When they feel that we are obtuse over a non-reciprocal feeling, it might be due to that.
And when we become conscious, it is too late.

Love & its stupidity.