Which Mythological Form Are You?

You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.

Which Mythological Form Are You?

Growing up melancholy

Will a child brought up by a single-parent better off than a complete family without love?

Dad had been job-hopping since she was born, no stable income. Had ventured into business operation but failed. Been jobless for years till now, and not an active houseman. A religious man with no responsibility; has a complicated but smart mind; keeps thoughts to himself. Is always gloomy n appears to suffer from slight depression. Rather strict too.

Mom’s the sole breadwinner. Is regretful over her marriage n apparently lack of love. An independent woman coping tediously with her work n family. Is now seeking some good returns from her hard work on raising her kids single-handedly. At times, this can be heard from her, “Inquire ur own conscience, is it right to do this to ur mom?” Not as knowledgeable as Dad, but has a contemporary frame of mind. Believes in independence; women can do pretty well without men. Hopes her kids get to learn skills that are beneficial throughout their lifetime.

Both chose to stay together for twenty odd years for their children’s sake. No doubt, negative remarks and squabbles between themselves ruined the image of a harmonious family. Miraculously, their kids turned out to be well-behaved but naïve due to their over-protection. One of them is a pessimistic daughter who normally suppresses her feelings. She is getting hopeless on her dad. Struggling very hard to respect him for some good values inculcate on her, and always attempted to cheer or counsel him, she is exhausting. She hates to see her dad being so cynical all day because he influences her pretty much. At times, contradiction sets in whenever she compares what she did for him n what he has done as a father n husband. She had hoped to grow up without a dad even. However, what will she become if no one instills right virtues on her? He’s not bad, just irresponsible n reclusive. Indeed, it’s an extremely, terribly, absolutely stressful feeling..very! Mom on the other hand has high expectation on her. Wanting her daughter to be witty, a graduate n filial, she has done it, except being witty. Still, she worries she’ll retire in loneliness n pathetically in future. She’s rather short-tempered so daughter has to nurture patience with her.. By right, she should be contented with such a daughter, however something’s missing still...

In spite knowing both of them did or is doing everything for their children, daughter’s is not happy with her family. Why? Perhaps both her parents are not genuinely contented with their life. They wanted a real long-term happiness. But how?

Meanwhile I was thinking hard - should a mother ask things in return from her kids for raising them up drearily? Isn’t this supposed to be fulfilled for the role as a mother? Shouldn’t mothers sacrifice without thinking things in return? Should the father be given the respect his child ought to give, for the lack of his responsibility?

Anyway, their children should learn to be contented with what they are enjoying now. Some people in the world do not own this much. No matter how much one owns, it’s just a passing time, an experience. Nothing is ours forever.

At A Loss

This is my first weblog. Supposedly it should start off with something joyous. I don’t know if this is considered a blissful thing – I seem to have fallen for a Canadian online friend. We met at yahoo pool game. One year... we’ve been in contact for a year via msn messenger. He was an extremely chubby guy when I first knew him; almost thrice my weight! As he is always online from the evening daily, I thought he’s not outgoing n turn off to workout. One day, I encouraged him to do something about his unhealthy lifestyle. Chided by him, I stopped my preaching. I then thought, ‘gosshh.. is he’s really gonna be a bumper forever?’ Whatever it is, we carry on our conversation albeit the unsolicited advice. Gradually, he became sort of my daily online buddy as I’ll always see him on at my workplace (it’s evening at Canada - 13 hrs difference). He’s not what I thought as hostile n introvert. Contrary, he’s practical n a nice chap. Sharing rather similar personalities, we managed to click well as friends, platonic relationship I meant..really, I swear! Bcos I had some other one in mind then..

Months later, he told me he had shed great pounds..weighing a whole of me! I knew he has been heading to gym but I was stunned to realize he has actually been doing it daily. He told me he did it partly because of what I’ve said. Also, his dream is to become a policeman. Impressed by his perseverance, I continue to encourage n cheer for him.

There was this day, he slept later than norm. I was working in the office. He said he was thinking of someone. I was elated for that my friend has finally got himself in a real love net; he had a not-so-serious one during college. Trust me, I was thinking of another girl that he likes. As he went on telling me, saying....he got up from bed when she called... n..it’s complicated as they are 22 hours apart. Something stung me instantly, ‘is he referring to me??’ I wondered. In the midst of this speculation, I told myself couldn’t be..but the probability is high! I was confused.. not too glad but was feeling a tad thrilled in my heart still.

Next few days, I caught up with him on msn again. I asked him about his someone tactfully. He said the girl is residing in the west. It’s complicated as they are 15 hrs apart. Quirkily, disappointment set in. Nonetheless, I supported him that love defeats everything. Since she’s in his heart, he should not be dejected for the distance, physically. Well enough, they will be meeting during Christmas. Humm... it’s ok. just a little gloomy here..

I’ve resigned from my job in Sept for my exams. My focus from my work seemed to evolve into emptiness after my exams. I started to apprehend that humans need more attention when they are lonely. Please distinguish solitude with loneliness. They are two different things. A person who likes solitude is not afraid of loneliness. We have been chatting for longer hours since then. Lately, he told me he’ll make me proud – on his muscles-building plan. Out of nowhere, feelings started to develop. I suspected my heart has moved. I missed him... when I deliberately turned off for some days. And when I’m on, I was elated to see him. What’s going on? Am I feeling lonely or am I falling for him? Will this feeling pursue when I started to work again one day? I don’t know. But I’ll definitely download messenger at my workplace.

Again, I turned off intentionally this morning.